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Writer's Block: I'm not a bully but...
Oct. 20th, 2011 08:23 am[Error: unknown template qotd]
Dear younger brother,
I know I said that I hated you back when I was delusional, but that's just it. I was delusional. I honestly thought that you were the source of all my problems back then. Now I know that it was just the way our trials were timed. I love you with all my heart, even when you are a pain in my rear. I'm sorry that I never really played with you when you were a kid, too. Again, the delusion thing is partly to blame. The other part is our age difference. I am so sorry about saying that I hated you.
You'll probably never read this, since you're not on LJ and probably don't even know it exists. But I can tell you when you wake up this morning.
With all sincerity,
Your "little" sister
Dear younger brother,
I know I said that I hated you back when I was delusional, but that's just it. I was delusional. I honestly thought that you were the source of all my problems back then. Now I know that it was just the way our trials were timed. I love you with all my heart, even when you are a pain in my rear. I'm sorry that I never really played with you when you were a kid, too. Again, the delusion thing is partly to blame. The other part is our age difference. I am so sorry about saying that I hated you.
You'll probably never read this, since you're not on LJ and probably don't even know it exists. But I can tell you when you wake up this morning.
With all sincerity,
Your "little" sister
I could have died today.
Oct. 5th, 2011 10:06 pmOr gotten raped or God knows what else.
Today a complete stranger wanted my phone number after I gave him directions. I should have known something fishy was going on (my sister did), but my insensitivity to the Spirit, coupled with a blind trust and desperate need for a guy to notice me blinded me. I gave him my home address. That's how utterly stupid I was being. If I hadn't obeyed my mother and told him to not follow me home, I don't know what would have happened. He still came to my house later, but we called the cops when that happened. My fishy senses were on full blast by that point. Now I have to change my phone number so that he can't track me. Hopefully we can get the number he gave us off my sister's phone so that my father can call him. My brother also has permission to kick the dudes ass if he sees him around the neighborhood.
There's only reason I can think of that I didn't get hurt. God was watching out for me, and no one will convince me otherwise. I haven't been nearly as good as I should have, and nothing was working to get me to change my ways. I guess I'm one of those people that has to be scared into doing what's right. This is my last chance to clean up my act, and you can bet that this time I will not waste it.
So girls, if a complete stranger comes up to you asking for your phone number, don't give it to him. Especially if he's charming. It's just trouble waiting to happen.
Today a complete stranger wanted my phone number after I gave him directions. I should have known something fishy was going on (my sister did), but my insensitivity to the Spirit, coupled with a blind trust and desperate need for a guy to notice me blinded me. I gave him my home address. That's how utterly stupid I was being. If I hadn't obeyed my mother and told him to not follow me home, I don't know what would have happened. He still came to my house later, but we called the cops when that happened. My fishy senses were on full blast by that point. Now I have to change my phone number so that he can't track me. Hopefully we can get the number he gave us off my sister's phone so that my father can call him. My brother also has permission to kick the dudes ass if he sees him around the neighborhood.
There's only reason I can think of that I didn't get hurt. God was watching out for me, and no one will convince me otherwise. I haven't been nearly as good as I should have, and nothing was working to get me to change my ways. I guess I'm one of those people that has to be scared into doing what's right. This is my last chance to clean up my act, and you can bet that this time I will not waste it.
So girls, if a complete stranger comes up to you asking for your phone number, don't give it to him. Especially if he's charming. It's just trouble waiting to happen.
Writer's Block: 9/11
Sep. 11th, 2011 09:00 am[Error: unknown template qotd]
I was getting my braces adjusted when the first tower was hit. I got home to find the news on television and a scar in a NYC skyscraper(I lived in Florida and was homeschooled at the time). I also watched the second plane hit and both towers fall.
At first I thought it was all some horrible accident. Then I saw the second plane hit. I really didn't cry until I tried to explain the whole thing to my younger brother, who had turned 5 that day(by providence, we had the party the day before so his cousin could attend). I'm not really sure why I took it upon myself to do that other than I felt that I had to.
As a quick aside, I was living about an hour south of where President George W. Bush was at the time he was told of the attacks.
I first really understood the reality and seriousness of evil that day.
I was getting my braces adjusted when the first tower was hit. I got home to find the news on television and a scar in a NYC skyscraper(I lived in Florida and was homeschooled at the time). I also watched the second plane hit and both towers fall.
At first I thought it was all some horrible accident. Then I saw the second plane hit. I really didn't cry until I tried to explain the whole thing to my younger brother, who had turned 5 that day(by providence, we had the party the day before so his cousin could attend). I'm not really sure why I took it upon myself to do that other than I felt that I had to.
As a quick aside, I was living about an hour south of where President George W. Bush was at the time he was told of the attacks.
I first really understood the reality and seriousness of evil that day.
You people sicken me. I wish I could put into words just how despicable you have become in my eyes(you were despicable to begin with, Mr. President, but that's another story). I can't think of a single one of you who isn't a liar. You promise one thing and do the total opposite. You think that you are above the law just because you bring it into existenece. You think you can do whatever you want with the taxpayer money you recieve without any consequences. Above all, you think that you can control us, the citizens of the United States of America.
Ladies and gentleman of Congress, Mr. President, I've got news for ya. You are wrong. Dead wrong. Do you honestly think that if this country's economy fails that we citizens will just sit around and do nothing? I don't think so. In fact, I daresay that should that happen, your positions of power will be stripped away from you faster than you can blink. And then what will you do?
I implore you, do not let the country fall. If you do, I shall be among those who testify against you at Judgement Day before God himself. And I will not be alone. 300 million others will be right there with me.
I pray that you will look inside yourselves, that you will see just how far you have fallen, and that you will exert all your efforts to get back in good standing with God and the nation.
(Sorry about the politics in this entry, flist. Usually I avoid the subject, but I had to get this off my chest.)
Ladies and gentleman of Congress, Mr. President, I've got news for ya. You are wrong. Dead wrong. Do you honestly think that if this country's economy fails that we citizens will just sit around and do nothing? I don't think so. In fact, I daresay that should that happen, your positions of power will be stripped away from you faster than you can blink. And then what will you do?
I implore you, do not let the country fall. If you do, I shall be among those who testify against you at Judgement Day before God himself. And I will not be alone. 300 million others will be right there with me.
I pray that you will look inside yourselves, that you will see just how far you have fallen, and that you will exert all your efforts to get back in good standing with God and the nation.
(Sorry about the politics in this entry, flist. Usually I avoid the subject, but I had to get this off my chest.)
worldblog.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2011/06/07/6803346-after-tsunami-elderly-couple-rebuilds-a-small-life
This is just one of several stories about people rebuilding in the tsunami affected areas. I was especially touched by the fact that the wife wanted to rebuild because she wanted to remember her brother, who had built the house.
Other stories of the aftermath include a father and son rebuilding the repair business they had lost, a fisherman contemplating a daunting future, a teenage girl orphaned by the disaster saying to feel sorry not for her, but for little kids who lost their parents, and an increase in weddings after the disaster by those who had previously put it off.
These are probably just a few of the stories of the affected people rebuilding their lives. Many more will probably never be told, but are no less inspiring.
This is not a phenomenon restricted to Japan. People everywhere pick themselves up after a natural disaster and do their best to keep going. That's how humanity does things.
So why do I consider this epic win? Because anyone picking themselves up after great hardship is made of epic win in my book!
The Ultimatum
May. 16th, 2011 08:49 amGet productive on a consistent basis by September 1st, or you get an efficiency apartment with only the basics for survival. That means no TV, no internet, nothing but four walls.
That's the ultimatum my parents have set for me. I guess I'm just one of those people who won't do anything unless severe punishment is threatened. Not the best way to go through life, let me tell ya.
I hold no ill will towards my parents for doing this. Heck, I was the one who suggested that I need a deadline to accomplish anything. My parents are only doing this because they love me and want me to reach my full potential, which I certainly am not doing at the moment.
Still, it is rather nerve-wracking to have to make so much change in a relatively short amount of time. And as long time followers know, I don't like change very much. It's either change or go through hell, though. I think I'll go with change. I've been through enough hell as it is with my schizophrenia and other mental problems.
So yeah, wish luck. I could certainly use it.
That's the ultimatum my parents have set for me. I guess I'm just one of those people who won't do anything unless severe punishment is threatened. Not the best way to go through life, let me tell ya.
I hold no ill will towards my parents for doing this. Heck, I was the one who suggested that I need a deadline to accomplish anything. My parents are only doing this because they love me and want me to reach my full potential, which I certainly am not doing at the moment.
Still, it is rather nerve-wracking to have to make so much change in a relatively short amount of time. And as long time followers know, I don't like change very much. It's either change or go through hell, though. I think I'll go with change. I've been through enough hell as it is with my schizophrenia and other mental problems.
So yeah, wish luck. I could certainly use it.
Sure took us long enough!
May. 1st, 2011 10:15 pmBin Laden is finally dead! I know I shouldn't be this excited about someone dying, but this is just too momentous an occasion not to be excited! Finally, after almost a decade of wondering and waiting and watching and pretty much losing hope of us ever finding him, we got him!
To be honest, when I first saw the news, I was skeptical. Mind you, I first saw it on Twitter, so my skepticism was well founded.
You know what though? I'm rather sad that it had to end for him this way. Mass murderer that he was, he was still a child of God, just like Hitler and Stalin and Mao were. It's sad that people can become so wicked that the only way to prevent them from hurting others is to kill them.
I am fully aware that the short term ramifications include the people venerating him as a martyr and thus carrying on attacks in his memory. I really think that in the long run, the world will be a better place.
My mom had the weird idea of sticking his body on a pole at Ground Zero, Vlad the Impaler style. It would certainly be quite the message. It's also kind of disturbing coming from my mother.
My brother, whose birthday is September 11th, is positively giddy with joy right now. We have all been trying to calm him down, but to no avail.
Bets on whether this gets more news coverage than Friday's royal wedding.
To be honest, when I first saw the news, I was skeptical. Mind you, I first saw it on Twitter, so my skepticism was well founded.
You know what though? I'm rather sad that it had to end for him this way. Mass murderer that he was, he was still a child of God, just like Hitler and Stalin and Mao were. It's sad that people can become so wicked that the only way to prevent them from hurting others is to kill them.
I am fully aware that the short term ramifications include the people venerating him as a martyr and thus carrying on attacks in his memory. I really think that in the long run, the world will be a better place.
My mom had the weird idea of sticking his body on a pole at Ground Zero, Vlad the Impaler style. It would certainly be quite the message. It's also kind of disturbing coming from my mother.
My brother, whose birthday is September 11th, is positively giddy with joy right now. We have all been trying to calm him down, but to no avail.
Bets on whether this gets more news coverage than Friday's royal wedding.
riot-of-flowers.livejournal.com/161471.html
Because my mother, aunts, and grandmother suffered unspeakably because of my grandfather, and because no human being deserves to be treated in such a way.
